mood nak memasak

Tiba2 rasa macam nak me'roti' dan menge'kek' .. adakah kerana Sya'aban yang akan menjelma esok, dan Ramadhan akan tiba sebulan lagi .. tapi tak salah kalau nak mengasah bakat ye tak?

Mana tu tiba2 roti tu jadi 'roti jala' la pulak.... tungguuuu

Makrifat Cinta

Tiba2 'ter' suka lagu ni, tp tak suka baris akhir, so me delete last row .. He3 suka suki jer lah..

Tiadalah aku

Tanpa mengenalmu

Dan kita membuktikan

Lama kemesraan

Lalu merantaikan erti kekuatan

Inilah pengabdian percintaan

Tiadalah dirimu

Tanpa jasadku

Walaupun hanyaku

Boneka kaku

Hingga kau bisikkan satu pengucapan suci

Hiduplah aku di kamar cintamu

Mendengarkanlah bisikan cinta

Ku melihatmu tiada bandingannya

Segala kau berikan padaku

Untuk buktikan cinta

Dari jiwaku yang dulu kekosongan

Degup jantungku belum pernah kedengaran

Kini mengalirlah nafas ini

Membawa cintamu di hatiku

Engkau kekasih... engkau kekasih...

Tika masa engkau ku rindu

Ku sebut namamu

Di kamar cintamu

Dan ku tutup erat di dalam makrifah cinta

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Kids result

Esok hari marathon result. Pagi ambik result Taufiq kat skbrj, lepas tu kena rush ke KS untuk result Angah. Nasib baik new ks hi way buka smlm, esok bleh try. Angah dah awal2 cakap nak outing .. but Taufiq tak leh ikut coz tadi cikgu dah msg, tuisyen ganti esok.  Hurmm .. tuisyen ni pun me just menunggu hari jer nak habiskan.  Byk karenah pulak di akhir-akhir ini, bukan dari cikgu tapi..... apa2lah me membebel hari ini.


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berjumpa kawan lama...

me, Shakinah & Hubby & my hubby

Shakinah, my classmate fr f1-f5, roomate f5, fren, advisor, tutor (ha3 me malas belajar masa sekolah, dia budak pandai), partner naik train dr ASetar till BM, partner balik kg etc, etc.  She is one of my model/idola for/to be a very good fried.  After SPM, me rapat dgn my matrix & uni friend, but she without failed will sent at least a card on every raya .. After so long haven't met, suddenly she gave me surprised on my wedding.  Nasib dia tak baik, to have a friend like me, me tak pandai menghargai kawan, i cannot make it on her wedding, nasib baik my mom attended on my behalf.  After so long again, we met at ICU, she was a doctor in charged when my late grand father admitted there.  After that, back to our normal routine raya card exchange every year, suddenly my mom inform me that she was a regular patient of Dr Shakinah's clinic.  Ermm looks like my mom, penyambung silaturrahim persahabatan kami.  Few times visited her at her clinic, few other time we planned, but cannot make it for so many reasons.  Lately, me missed her so much, pray that Allah give us chance to meet.  Went back to kampung for my cousin's wedding, and have in my mind to 'lari' from the event for a while to see her.  Suddenly my mil inform me that Dr Shakinah was also invited.  Alhamdulillah, ada rezeki untuk berjumpa, not only her but also her hubby at my cousin's wedding.

Shakinah, if you come across this blog, i just wanna let you know that i really appreciate this friendship.  I'm not good at words but i know that you know i really appreciate this friendship.  Semoga Allah merahmati kehidupan Kinah & family ...

Happy Birthday Luqman

Its Luqman 8th Birthday today.  Mama tau mama belum buat yang terbaik untuk Luqman sebagaimana mama2 yang lain atau dalam ertikata lain, mama mungkin bukan mama yang terbaik untuk Luqman.  A lot of weekness in me .. tapi itu tidak bermakna mama tidak menyayangi Luqman.  Sayang mama untuk Luqman tidak berbelah bahagi sejak Luqman lahir.  Cuma kadang2 mama confuse,  lebih2 lagi dengan dugaan demi dugaan yang mama terima sejak akhir2 ini.  Kadang2 mama terkedu melihat perkembangan positive Luqman tanpa usaha mama.  Allah Maha Kaya .. mama yakin satu hari nanti Luqman akan mampu seiring dgn kakak dan abang.  Semoga Allah merahmati kehidupanmu nak ... mama sayang Luqman.

idam2 utk berbuka .. melayan mata

 Hasil blogwalking lunch hour.  Menghabiskan masa santapan mata ... opps terkurang pahala puasa.

ini boleh jadi menu hari ini, beli kat pasar tani jelah, coz ptg ni ada appointment dgn ms bling2

ni mungkin menu utk esok2 - ermm air asam tu mcm menarik jer

 ini set utk esok - tukar ikan kerapu yg ada 2 ekor lagi dlm freezer

p/s gambar semuanya dari Mr Google.

gambar kejadian sebenar akan keluar esok @ seawalnya mlm ini he3

special gift to myself

I've been so 'down' with few things that come to me lately.  Things happened for reasons, but i cant to see the real 'reason' till i read this article here.

The kindest and most compassionate thing you can do for yourself and others is to forgive yourself.

We are often told that we should forgive others, the old saying “forgive and forget” is thrown around constantly, so you make an effort to forgive those who you feel have wronged you in some way and you find it almost impossible to do.

Why is that? It is possibly because you have not yet learned how to forgive yourself.

In terms of self-help a better saying to use would be “charity begins at home” or in this case charity begins with self. You cannot freely give to the world that which you do not give to yourself. Just as you cannot truly love someone without first loving yourself, you cannot forgive someone without forgiving yourself.

When you learn to forgive yourself then and only then will you be able to forgive others. Paradoxically though, when you learn to forgive yourself you will in turn find that you have nothing to forgive others for.

When you forgive yourself you let go of a part of yourself, the part that wants to keep you trapped inside a circle of blame, shame, guilt and fear. This part of you, which essentially is part of your ego, does not want you to be free of it because ego does not want to relinquish control. Free yourself from this viscous pattern of behavior for it has the ability to murder your spirit.

It is possible to spend your entire life blaming yourself for this and that, feeling guilty because you did this or that and living in fear of the consequences of this and that. This way of living has you immobilized because you are dwelling in the past (the guilt and blame for what has been) and you cannot enjoy your future (for fear of the consequences of what has been).

There is only on solution, you must give yourself the ultimate gift, the gift of forgiveness.

Self forgiveness is not difficult to master, you only need to simply spend some time thinking over things that you feel badly about, things that you may have said or done to yourself or to others, thank your higher self for allowing you to see that you are in fact imperfect and there will be times when you mess up.

Apologize to yourself and let it go. Practice this often, whenever you find yourself beating up on yourself about something you did or did not do, accept that the deed is done and it cannot be undone, forgive yourself and move on to find a solution if necessary, if it something that another action cannot rectify then you must let it go, for it is in fact in the past already and remind yourself that no one can change the past.

This is not meant to relinquish you from responsibility, it in fact making you more responsible, but in a more positive and focused way. Often responsibility is seen as something negative, something to be endured, but being responsible can also be remarkably freeing and in terms of forgiveness if you take responsibility for forgiving yourself you will learn what it is to live without the burden on guilt, blame, fear and shame.

When you have mastered the loving act of forgiving yourself, your heart will then be open to forgiving others. 

This is part of a natural progression on your journey to enlightenment, to forgive others means to take away yet a bit more control from ego and allow your higher self the possession of your thoughts and actions that it deserves.

Forgiving others shows you have the ability to open up and let love flow through you.

It shows that you no longer bear grudges and carry hatred in your heart, you will recognize the connection that you have to every other soul in the universe, you will not feel separate and alone, you will no longer allow the actions of others to instill bitterness within you and because you are radiating love despite what is happening around you, in turn love is what you will receive, thus eliminating the need to forgive.

The law of attraction states that you receive that which you send out, so if you project only forgiveness and love, you will only attract others that do the same and so ultimately you will not encounter behavior that warrants your forgiveness. 

But all of this cannot be until you learn first to forgive yourself.

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and the best gift that i ever give to my self as at now ... forgiveness... pray for better tomorrow

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